Why can’t I learn from my mistakes? Why do I insist on doing the same stupid things? Why does God keep loving on me when I can’t seem to get past my “evil deeds”
I have wiped out many nations, devastating their fortress walls and towers. Their streets are now deserted; their cities lie in silent ruin. There are no survivors-- none at all. I thought, ‘Surely they will have reverence for me now! Surely they will listen to my warnings. Then I won’t need to strike again, destroying their homes.’ But no, they get up early to continue their evil deeds.
-- Zephaniah 3:6-
These are mistakes I thought I’d learned from years ago. Yet, when life became harrowing, instead of turning to God, I turned to distraction. I continue in my distracted deeds instead of facing and dealing with my life and embracing God. Once again, I find myself making the same mistakes over and over again. When does the cycle end?
It is in my frailty and weakness where God’s true essence can be seen. He loves, encourages and embraces me despite my sin. I feel His presence even now hoping that I’ll respond today. Maybe one day I will once and for all let Him break my repetitive chains. Maybe today I’ll open up and feel embraced by His grace, because I am loved, I am redeemed and I have been forgiven.
What are you struggling with that you keep repeating over and over again? Have you asked God to help you let it go? Are you trusting Him to be the one to break your repetitive chains? I encourage you to learn from my mistakes and let Him step into your struggles. Believe that any true and lasting change in our lives must first come from the changes He makes in our hearts.